[0090]

I'm going through a volatile phase in my life...I think. One second I'm super happy with the changes I'm making, and the next I'm going what the f*&# am I doing? When I'm happy, everything goes easy. I don't need to explain myself to anyone. I do what I want and I answer only to myself. I like to maintain the upperhand in every situation, mainly with a young man we'll call Andrew for all intents and purposes. However sometimes I feel a sense of sadness, not large enough to be alarming but enough to be unsettling. The sadness stems from my inner psyche when I feel like I'm making bad decisions, or rather decisions which I'm not 100% sure about. But I guess no one is ever 100% sure about anything. I just hope my actions and decisions don't end up hurting me, or more importantly, hurting someone I care too much about.