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Revelation: There's more than one form of attraction.

Of course there's the kind where you lust for someone, then there's the kind where you wish they'd lust for you. But then there's also the kind where you find tonnes of potential...like marriage maybe? To find the potential of not just a fling, but of something deeper. You're not in love yet, because you don't know the person well enough. Yet you're attracted to them, because they're different; young and proper. And that difference of a feeling makes you rethink your strategy. Or maybe even rethink the whole attraction, because it seems absolutely absurd. And when you start thinking rationally, it is in fact very outlandish, because what the hell? How can you be simply attracted to someone, in a very clandestine way might I add, yet still think of a future potential? Also, how can you be attracted to someone in a very lustful way, yet you think of the person as the timid version of Cary Grant? The entire thing is foolish, and probably very very ephemeral! But then you start to think that you're just desperate for a little forbidden fun. The thrill you might get out of wooing a young, very innocent person. Of taking them over to the dark, pleasurable, sinful side. Evil, I know...yet the very thought of it gets your blood rushing.